what stress has done to me

the past two weeks...

I've gained weight...all I do is sit and work and eat..

I'm losing hair....I think I'm balding...

Ugly and I mean U.G.L.Y RED spots popping out of my face...EVERYWHERE!

Losing my voice...

Lack of sleep....

Can't stop worrying about my work assignment...

ACHES..hand aches (typing too much numbers) body aches (sitting straight up) eye aches (non-stop looking at figures)

In conclusion, I've turned old, ugly and fat. I look like I've aged 10 times more.

off track

I think I've set the record for staying indoors for the longest period of time, having NO friends to hang around with, away from chinese food, surviving with bread and biscuits for dinner for 1 whole week, still counting, and indoors ain't making me a happy person at all because I bring WORK back home. I shan't complain that much as I'm provided with free breakfast and lunch everyday.

With the luxury of softy beds, someone to clean your room everytime you get back from work, helped. But nothing beats MY ROOM! Even with the mess, I lurve everything of it.

I would say this job engagment would be my very first, away from home, and worse of all, not knowing who would be with you on the job. If it didn't start right, God knows what will become of me. You wouldn't want to know. Yes, I am scary. To some. I dreaded coming in the first place. I shall not compare this with my outings and road trips with the company of beloved friends. It's all different. Yes, I like outdoor, I like adventure, but working on a given time frame outside your comfort zone is even more stressful. I complain, I talk to much, Bleh. That's me, like it or not.

I never thought it was easy. I wanted to try. So, don't judge me if I can't do it. Or if I can't take it. OR whether I can make it through. Call it directionless if you want. I'm still finding.

It sounds emo, but you can't blame a girl, on her 2nd week of work being sent up north. Not knowing procedures and systems and expect her to know it all. Yes, you can see that I'm all stressed up. Dateline's soon, manager's flying here soon, I'm not sure if everything's going to be smooth.

And now, I continue with the life of an auditor. back to W.O.R.K.

i miss home

I'm not sure again. I miss home and it's only my 4th day here. Life's been pretty mundane with the job of an auditor. I ask questions, investigate, probe, bug, and pester the accountant for EVERYTHING! I find myself quite irritating and I think the guy's getting a little stressed up. I pity him because he's such a nice guy and I feel guilty at having to make his life a bitter one.

This time round, it's a Japanese Company and it's pretty interesting how the Japanese work. And when they start speaking in english, you have to open your ears wider to grasp what they're getting at. :) But, very nice and polite people. A bow to greet everyday! So nice right?

I think I've been overly worried about work. I really thank God that He provided me with a very understanding senior, not expecting a lot, but yet, I have to finish certain part of audit by myself. And I wouldn't want to bother her much with questions because she's already stressed up with her own part. I need to self learn. :( something I'm not very efficient at.

I wonder if I would chose Singapore the next time round. I missed this opportunity, this time. Only if they called me one month earlier. Anyhow, I'll just stick to this path at the moment and see how things are...

It's been quite a long week and by the time I get home, it's dark. And working from the resort doesn't seem as bad as working in the office. I'm so in the mood for christmas...Decos up, lights up, and way to go, SHOPPING! I'll just have to find time. SHOPPING freak I am!

I don't get to see my penyu, so, I'm flying home soon to see my "man-dressed-penyu". *hint hint*

land of penyus

Blogging from TERENGGANU! Man...I'm sooooooooo tired. Flew all the way here for a job...and it's only my 3rd week at work. Anyhow, everything's pretty fine. I'll be back in 2 weeks time though..sob sob.. And I don't get to see penyus...:(

Yesterday...i was staying in this -10 star service apartment..and now.........after complaining to the client......I'm staying....HERE!!! Terengganu Equestrian Resort!! The only world class Oceanside Equestrian Park & Resort in Malaysia. So cool right? I've got wireless connection...I've got the beach beside us, I've got nice beds..I've got clean water...I've got toilet papers..I've got toilet bowls that functions....and at least its 100 times better that that dodgy service apartment...weird looking guys around..so dangerous lor. At least this resort, there's horse riding?? So romantic riding during sunset!!! Eeeeeee....Anyone interested? *grin*

Oh well..I hope I get to enjoy as much during my stay here. But somehow, work is still work. I miss KL lor..actually i miss my family and friends. It's only my 2nd day and I'm complaining so much. I'll update soon again I guess with my boring life here. Time to sleep...Yawns....

this life

Aren't exactly sure why I'm feeling this way

2 weeks isn't very long nor short

I'm not sure how I'm gonna survive alone there

Moving out of home, my comfort zone

Living in a land without my family and friends

2 weeks? I am sure gonna miss home

It is one of those days which you wish that you stay home

just stay, not move

am gonna miss YC

It is definately the season

Christmas..."Once upon a love story"

I miss those days of practice

"wella wella wella huh"? or was it bella bella bella huh?

the amount of time spent singing

looking at them dance from a distance

makes my heart wanna dance as well

the dedication and commitment

I love em' all

Not getting younger anymore

Life's catching up

Fond memories of good old times

Letting go, go wild, boundless energy

Lazy hazy crazy days

and now, more worries, disorganized thoughts

time to sit, plan and get things right

year's ending

a whole new year ahead

new discoveries for what lies ahead

to discover myself, discover life, discover the world

living up to reality

random emotional blunders

it's only human

Let's put our brain back in charge

and invest smartly, heart and mind

And let God deal with the rest.

i need a breather

BUSY BUSY BUSY!I'm exhausted! Lack of sleep these days....Anyhow, I'll be away outstation for a job engagement for 2 weeks! Gosh...that's very very long..I'm so gonna miss K.L. :( sobs...

Some lil updates, MISS JOY WONG! First week of work, and I got a bouquet of flowers!! Lilies, my favourite. :) Thanks to my beloved brother, he just made my saham higher. I got interrogated. Ahh... he just made it as the number 1 BEST BROTHER award. I love the flowers! But I love my brother more..muahahah...he's so gonna kill me for making this statement..hehe. I teared..I was touched! So girls, start pestering your brothers for somethng surprising on your first week at work!! It really made my day and week! Appreciated!

i like!!

hahaha poser again @ work

I'm too lazy to update about the short road trip..will do so when I get back from the land of the many penyu's. Anyhow, I won't be able to make it for chiller plant gig! I'm so sorry my dear friends. You know who you are. I'm missing good stuffs..PG165..I will catch you performing soon again! Another wedding, perhaps? *grin*

I kinda miss blogging days....I so need to find time now..time management i need!

road trip

yay! I'm off away from work, and busy busy KL. Off to road trip! Will update soon when I get back! I'm getting so hyper these days because Christmas is nearing! Just love it when it comes to the month of December.

Awaiting for the arrival of the maharaja and family!! Can't wait! Woohoo!!!!!!! I'm lovin' it!

gigs

Oh well I got this from mel's blog. Ahh....and so..it's another gig! Haven't been attending any for quite a very long time. I really do hope I can make it this time..it'll definately be a reunion again! Anyone interested in coming? Let me know!

Anyhow, work has been pretty relaxing..It had definately NOT begun. Peak season soon. I'm not sure where I'm heading as well. I really thank God that everywhere I go, I meet good company of friends and colleagues. I'm not sure how, but I'm certain it has been God's blessings towards me. How much I've disappointed Him and yet, He's still holding on to me, never to let me go.

it's a happy day!

And so, I had lunch with some of my ex-colleagues...So, one year ago, I had very long hair...

So, I was welcomed and felt sooooooo at home. I was no stranger any longer. I felt so loved and wanted, blessed with such good company of ex-colleagues, whom i might call my colleagues maybe, someday again. And goodness me, the whole department was aware of my arrival even before I stepped into the 6th floor again. News does travel fast. Thanks to a certain guy, he made a grand entrance for me..announcing to all the managers. It's quite embarrassing though. *hides face*

Been almost a year since i last stepped into the building. Fond memories. Some people left, some remained. Some, about to leave. I smuggled myself illegally into the department finding myself chatting away and catching up, with lost time. Lots of gossip. Politics. Changes. Ups. Downs. Being me, I had to add in spices to the gossips. Cheesy. I like!

Oh well..still awaiting for the final affirmation. I hope I get it though. Oh God, please bless me and help me. I'm not sure if I'm gonna survive in this line of job.

and now i look like this...poser pics

quite poser lor

poser poser poser..muahaha